Sanctimonious Bastard

shall continue the last poem some other day... if ever it has an end of any kind.

The south is really bubbly this summer. You can't hate it, and you can't totally love it.
You'd pray that you drift into sleep without any twisting and turning...
but that won't happen.
It's a total fact. i love summer. for better and for worse. and for the inconveniences.
you know better.

I'll define my title of today. i watched Angels and Demons. i loved Ewan McGregor. the way words
flow from his mouth... like a ship on silent seas. a pleasure to watch him do his thing.
am a fan! well sanctimonious bastard was what he was in the movie i guess. i haven't looked up for the meaning yet! :P


back to the South.
Well Moon so close to Jupiter. hmmm...
but what shot me dead was Mars.
A glowing thing in the sky is a star.
A glowing thing that is RED, seemingly close, don't look further, It's mars.
but the bastard that i am. the fool that i am, seeing a RED STAR, rising from the East
with the constellation of Leo and Cancer, i thought it was Saturn.

But that Orion. He's no less. He looks wonderful. Wherever. Whether you say Rigel is the shoulder and Betelgeuse is the knee. or other way round.
We're Southerners here. Let us choose the way we adore and cherish our Orion.

Scorpio is out right in the morning. haven't seen him yet. but am sure. I know.
It's a cycle. What belongs to winter, will only show up in summer mornings.
haven't had the courage to wake up that early yet.
THE RAINS! they're good til its evening. and that's it. don't ask for more. nights should be starry. clear. without clouds. full stop.

Like my new shoes

Hmm.. Happy New Year! :)

When the savage (person) meets the people, there are things that come out... in my case, some un-rhymed lines... and fear.
Well it's new year, party time, meet people you've not met since a year. people you love obviously.
I spent my time looking at them and if i could see my eyes, i would have seen love.
It's family time. It's high interaction time. It's high show time. But let's forget it...
Why can't i write happy things anymore? pinch me. it's not 360 yahoo... that's it.

i need to get rid of all this amertume in my head... twist me on myself and take that tasteless juice out of me... Resolution 2010, let that be then!

You should have seen this new little flower, it's so dark red, grenat, that it's almost black...
my garden is pretty these days, very pretty. little flowers popping up everywhere.
and my two strawberry plants loved the rain too. its growing, making new territories.

Closed my eyes,
The most beautiful was so high in outer space,
Don't want to see this place,
Hands on my eyes,
Couldn't block the sounds that came to my ears,
' that I could hear their words and other fears,
...

to be continued..(hopefully)

Be brave and face the moon

Orion is at his best right now.. there's no denying.
even when he comes setting at my window at night... tout retourné.. il est si magnifique.
il ne reste plus que je ne le trouve sur terre... quite a statement from a generally shy person.
but what about this moon... he's a fine match too... next to Jupiter, these two form such a beautiful pair... I almost miss Venus suddenly... so fine in the early morning sky.
but it's been days and weeks and months that i woke up early to watch their show.

finally 2009 has been just a lazy year... Hardwork would die seeing what i've done, or not done.
but surely i got my second A for my 3 years of study. sincerely i hope there's more to come... else am doomed.

Damnation, we choose to be damned and the way to be damned.

Don't try to take me out of where I am.

His Wings

He put his own wings besides me and whispers,
Secret words and silent vows,
Things that everyone knows,
Laughs and oh how he laughs at the music that plays inside me,
Brushes away my very words,
Those of wisdom I think are true,
Smiles, beckoning the wings,
The sky's so blue,
Let's fly there he says,
Besides the sunlight,
and where it's cold and you can't think,
But my little feet love the touch of the ground,
I wouldn't fly,
I wouldn't take his wings,
He would come again in time,
To see if my own wings have grown...

Beers and guns

It's no hiding how i spend my time. there are more boys around than girls.
let's put it gals and guys. and what i discover about my friends these days is becoming more and more terrible.
Where is discipline and where the heck are the parents?
okay! maybe my growing up was different, each home and parents are different...


The guys i know right now, they're damn dead drunk before reaching home. and there's no need telling how they're behaving all the way long...
Is there no way in for decency? or fear? or respect?

am glad to say that i've grown up with slaps. oh lots of them. never been such an angel...

it seems to me that the guys and gals are trying to test out every possible way to satisfaction...
but what the hell? in the middle of the street?

I used to joke bout the way people say "it's not even noon and you're drunk"
but now! it's becoming so normal to hear that they're just drunk.
Is it university life or what? i don't know.
always been a home's kid.
my incomprehension!
Always been running around... see how things work. tried to discover the big world with our little feet and opening our eyes wide.
We've been kids with parents who cared.
but is there an age where they don't care? or is there an age where the kids don't care what the parents would say...

I don't think there's any age at which the parents shouldn't be having to teach their kids the right thing to do...

Am still clumsy at writing, so please do bare with me.!

People of all faith

Where am i standing in this world,
I watch people do their play,
Of hate and love,
Of being nice and fair,
I came to know my place,
I am back there,
where the race started,
I can see all the faces,
Old and new,
Grown and gone,
But still they revolve around one existing point,
The stormy lives they lead to catch one breath,
To try to find the one secret corner in their being,
So that they could cherish it forever,
They are people of all faith,
Defining and redefining love.

Flowers

Sure life ain't just hearts and flowers... but you can't help trying... Try try try until you die.

I have my gerbera outside. ain't totally white, it's a bit of a greenish.
then i have a green glaieul too outside, it got stained because of heavy rains. pushing the curtains, i try to watch my jasmines, they're good but you kinda have to try hard to know how good it smells.
funny rain! summer rains!
can't hate them either...

oh.. little word by world.
was reading yesterday's news... i never do that. but oye! where are we headed?
they opened out a woman's womb to see the baby? i know. hard words. but it's exactly what the criminals said.

let me stay with the flowers.


oh this pink little sweetheart! they fade in a day