Without the I

Maybe, have been a leaf fallen from the tree,
Some kind of life, without conscience,
Some times still, some times constantly moving,
Without words to scribe,
Without light to move on,
Maybe, have been a thought without act,
Paths making steps for going back,
And life began,
Yet again and again,
For another desperate try,
Finding worlds and ways among stars,
Not so suddenly then, to remember where to go,
As light feet touched the ground,
Beautiful minds and bodies so sound,
Dancing to the joys of nature,
Countless were lovers,
Infinite were worshipers,
'til freedom came to have no meaning,

A thought of you...like...

A thought of you...like...

I didn't try anything hard,
Thought it would just get away,
Like fading stars in a morning light,
But it comes again like it went away the last time,
Like a summer breeze,
It pulled some colour out of the heart,
Like the smell of dry earth pulled away by a sudden rain,
Troubled the mind,
Like early moonlight troubles my sleep
Made me whisper prayers,
It made me do forgotten things,
I looked for the moon,
And damned this darkness looking back unto me,
Nothing soothing,
How much to wait again, before this thought of you would fade away.

I cannot see

I can't hide anymore,
Behind my mountains,
and beneath my clouds,
Maybe there's no difference,
between closing my eyes,
or opening them in the dark night,
Because i can't see a thing,
In this direction i am going,
i seek hands to hold,
and pleasures to behold,
But they do not last long,
And there i am, heads on,
Dry tears leave my eyes
and unsaid pains burn my throat,
As i turn down all the hands,
trying to help,
Me or themselves,
i do not know.
For remember!
I cannot see.

Stories of a Heart

Done! finally reconciled with myself. hard thing to do. very hard thing to do. remember the Laugh post. well i'll laugh at myself today.. wanna laugh. the rain makes me laugh. yes at my stupidity!
calls for some lines. we need some lines today...


So many things, told impossible to do,
Cannot find any black plastic cover for the heart,
How to protect then,
from the dust that rises,
from the flowers being thrown,
Oh heart, why listen to their stories,
You know very well of the world you reside,
You know your own stories,
And the things you dream of,
Oh heart why do you change so,
Even the moon would turn shy,
Find home and rest heart,
Change not, for adventure is ahead,
Every life you want to see is near.

To forget is one beautiful capability. Memory is one thing that stays, hence the name. shit! it's too obvious things am saying.
What's in my mind right now, i cannot speak. makes me think. have i ever spoken my mind.
Well at times it's a fear of denial, then fear of hurting another one, then it's fear of being laughed upon.
then for the shear pleasure of not letting anyone knowing what's going in my head, to be able to laugh upon the world. secretly. without guilt.
yes I love laughing. the next word that follows the word LAUGH is very important. see:

1. Laugh with the world: makes me a wonderful person. and you might assume that i will cry with the world.

2. Laugh at the world and its people : makes me a sinister. the last word that i heard that sadist.

To tell the truth, i laugh a lot at myself. takes courage, yes. but it is needed for a sane mind.
laugh at what you can't understand.
and this is one hell of a post. don't follow anything written here.

Thunder song

Thunder always inspired me... but this small piece is a mixture of the song Small and me seeing the world.

The state reached,
Pricked the heart,
And Stumbled upon the mind,
Where does the love zone rest,
Nobody knows,
But reaching out for equilibrium point,
Sudden change of heart,
Love for humanity,
Being the atom,
The smallest moving part,
But reaching out for equilibrium point,
Love can't be denied,
Love doesn't go unseen,
It needs to be reached,
It needs to be fed,
With fresh needs,
with fresh blood,
But around again,
It slows the beat,
Appears then disappears,
But they call it same,
Point of equilibrium reached,
You can't deny love no more.

It's so so hot here! Am no living thermometer, but must be around 30 degree Celsius.
am going to engineering school. sound so simple in simple terms.
but those are not my favourite days.
sure great things happened. made great friends... but had to forfeit so much. how much, i don't know.
i said before, be careful of what you wish. they might come true.
my best days have been at home. with all my friends playing hide and seek.
i played until i was 20. we're all much grown now. but it's still under the skin.
jumping across walls, in yards.. everywhere.anytime.

The days will stay and be remembered.

and i hope to get good things to remember bout university life here.

Going to learn Kung fu!
i lost volleyball...my love...
i got tennis..