Wonder

Have seen wonder with me own eyes,
Breathed through it and lost me mind,
Have seen the darkest of lives,
Have seen the brightest of lights,
Things only the night could give away,
And what a night!
morning was minutes away,
But all forgotten,
The world moved towards the sun,
and everyone slowly awoke,
But night stood still,
To me wonder birds sang,
trying to show impatience,
Even Moon was trying his thing,
But night Imprudent,
Playful night stayed.
Careless to moonlight,
Ignorant of sunlight.

Tales of Nowhere

Hello People!
Yes it's me!
Who?
Don't care!

But i have decided that i should put all my words together in one place. they might be moved later. but they need a place to stay..

Darkness settles upon the town,
The last glows bid goodbye before giving way,
They give way to the intentions of the light,
That to exist even when thought gone,
For its ways are so many,
It plays with the eyes of the world,
Invisible but glowing are the stars...

Without the I

Maybe, have been a leaf fallen from the tree,
Some kind of life, without conscience,
Some times still, some times constantly moving,
Without words to scribe,
Without light to move on,
Maybe, have been a thought without act,
Paths making steps for going back,
And life began,
Yet again and again,
For another desperate try,
Finding worlds and ways among stars,
Not so suddenly then, to remember where to go,
As light feet touched the ground,
Beautiful minds and bodies so sound,
Dancing to the joys of nature,
Countless were lovers,
Infinite were worshipers,
'til freedom came to have no meaning,

A thought of you...like...

A thought of you...like...

I didn't try anything hard,
Thought it would just get away,
Like fading stars in a morning light,
But it comes again like it went away the last time,
Like a summer breeze,
It pulled some colour out of the heart,
Like the smell of dry earth pulled away by a sudden rain,
Troubled the mind,
Like early moonlight troubles my sleep
Made me whisper prayers,
It made me do forgotten things,
I looked for the moon,
And damned this darkness looking back unto me,
Nothing soothing,
How much to wait again, before this thought of you would fade away.

I cannot see

I can't hide anymore,
Behind my mountains,
and beneath my clouds,
Maybe there's no difference,
between closing my eyes,
or opening them in the dark night,
Because i can't see a thing,
In this direction i am going,
i seek hands to hold,
and pleasures to behold,
But they do not last long,
And there i am, heads on,
Dry tears leave my eyes
and unsaid pains burn my throat,
As i turn down all the hands,
trying to help,
Me or themselves,
i do not know.
For remember!
I cannot see.

Stories of a Heart

Done! finally reconciled with myself. hard thing to do. very hard thing to do. remember the Laugh post. well i'll laugh at myself today.. wanna laugh. the rain makes me laugh. yes at my stupidity!
calls for some lines. we need some lines today...


So many things, told impossible to do,
Cannot find any black plastic cover for the heart,
How to protect then,
from the dust that rises,
from the flowers being thrown,
Oh heart, why listen to their stories,
You know very well of the world you reside,
You know your own stories,
And the things you dream of,
Oh heart why do you change so,
Even the moon would turn shy,
Find home and rest heart,
Change not, for adventure is ahead,
Every life you want to see is near.

To forget is one beautiful capability. Memory is one thing that stays, hence the name. shit! it's too obvious things am saying.
What's in my mind right now, i cannot speak. makes me think. have i ever spoken my mind.
Well at times it's a fear of denial, then fear of hurting another one, then it's fear of being laughed upon.
then for the shear pleasure of not letting anyone knowing what's going in my head, to be able to laugh upon the world. secretly. without guilt.
yes I love laughing. the next word that follows the word LAUGH is very important. see:

1. Laugh with the world: makes me a wonderful person. and you might assume that i will cry with the world.

2. Laugh at the world and its people : makes me a sinister. the last word that i heard that sadist.

To tell the truth, i laugh a lot at myself. takes courage, yes. but it is needed for a sane mind.
laugh at what you can't understand.
and this is one hell of a post. don't follow anything written here.

Thunder song

Thunder always inspired me... but this small piece is a mixture of the song Small and me seeing the world.

The state reached,
Pricked the heart,
And Stumbled upon the mind,
Where does the love zone rest,
Nobody knows,
But reaching out for equilibrium point,
Sudden change of heart,
Love for humanity,
Being the atom,
The smallest moving part,
But reaching out for equilibrium point,
Love can't be denied,
Love doesn't go unseen,
It needs to be reached,
It needs to be fed,
With fresh needs,
with fresh blood,
But around again,
It slows the beat,
Appears then disappears,
But they call it same,
Point of equilibrium reached,
You can't deny love no more.

It's so so hot here! Am no living thermometer, but must be around 30 degree Celsius.
am going to engineering school. sound so simple in simple terms.
but those are not my favourite days.
sure great things happened. made great friends... but had to forfeit so much. how much, i don't know.
i said before, be careful of what you wish. they might come true.
my best days have been at home. with all my friends playing hide and seek.
i played until i was 20. we're all much grown now. but it's still under the skin.
jumping across walls, in yards.. everywhere.anytime.

The days will stay and be remembered.

and i hope to get good things to remember bout university life here.

Going to learn Kung fu!
i lost volleyball...my love...
i got tennis..

Trouble

the post below... have tried to make sense out of it. but haven't been able to. sorry!
the mess on the bed (or table for me) is the mess in my head...

Lover

I feel like writing a song. maybe a guitar will help. but i can't play the guitar well. Let's start with the song then... i never write with a She or her... let's try being a normal girl,with normal things to talk about then... it's difficult.. very .. and dont expect anything to rhyme no more.

Clouds got across the thoughts,
Like the clouds that drape that naked lover,
Lover hovering around till sunlight breaks,
No, no, no,
These clouds show no real ways,
They hide no real reasons,
Just thoughts, like flowers in moonlight,
Waiting for some reason to happen,
But Clouds take the mind elsewhere,
To places unreached,
To faces unseen,
For the mind wants no more
No more of what the clouds want to give.
Go mind! Scream Mind!
It wants to touch the clouds,
It wants to reach the lover,
Touch all the colours of sunlight,
Bring that lover to daylight,
No more partings,
Stood still while the black went blue,
Waited for the blue to fade to black,
Til the lover was seen
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This one goes incomplete too..

Who...

Oh! So there are people reading my posts?! thank you! thank you. please leave a comment...
am not adding that widget to see when people are coming and where they're from...
call it Paresse or stupidity...
but then.
Laziness is a form of stupidity, isn't it.
or would courage be a form of stupidity, as put forward by the little 2 brats in Ice Age 2. ?

I think, Not trying anything would be a form of stupidity. closing your little heart from the world would be stupidity.
Courage would then be required to mend the bruises. and time doesn't work like the impulse function either. happened in one moment, and disappeared in the second.
Courage to see the world meet and love. mix and appreciate each other.
Courage to see the world part from what it really wants.
What A world this is. You curse, curse and traumatize the different ones.
But it also happens that whatever the difference, it's humanity that binds us.
Impossible to see others suffer.
Forget cursing, you start praying...
And those who don't pray, they're even more courageous.
It's difficult not to have faith in anything... the Void is one dangerous and lonesome place...

Oh! it takes courage to live and see.

Sanctimonious Bastard

shall continue the last poem some other day... if ever it has an end of any kind.

The south is really bubbly this summer. You can't hate it, and you can't totally love it.
You'd pray that you drift into sleep without any twisting and turning...
but that won't happen.
It's a total fact. i love summer. for better and for worse. and for the inconveniences.
you know better.

I'll define my title of today. i watched Angels and Demons. i loved Ewan McGregor. the way words
flow from his mouth... like a ship on silent seas. a pleasure to watch him do his thing.
am a fan! well sanctimonious bastard was what he was in the movie i guess. i haven't looked up for the meaning yet! :P


back to the South.
Well Moon so close to Jupiter. hmmm...
but what shot me dead was Mars.
A glowing thing in the sky is a star.
A glowing thing that is RED, seemingly close, don't look further, It's mars.
but the bastard that i am. the fool that i am, seeing a RED STAR, rising from the East
with the constellation of Leo and Cancer, i thought it was Saturn.

But that Orion. He's no less. He looks wonderful. Wherever. Whether you say Rigel is the shoulder and Betelgeuse is the knee. or other way round.
We're Southerners here. Let us choose the way we adore and cherish our Orion.

Scorpio is out right in the morning. haven't seen him yet. but am sure. I know.
It's a cycle. What belongs to winter, will only show up in summer mornings.
haven't had the courage to wake up that early yet.
THE RAINS! they're good til its evening. and that's it. don't ask for more. nights should be starry. clear. without clouds. full stop.

Like my new shoes

Hmm.. Happy New Year! :)

When the savage (person) meets the people, there are things that come out... in my case, some un-rhymed lines... and fear.
Well it's new year, party time, meet people you've not met since a year. people you love obviously.
I spent my time looking at them and if i could see my eyes, i would have seen love.
It's family time. It's high interaction time. It's high show time. But let's forget it...
Why can't i write happy things anymore? pinch me. it's not 360 yahoo... that's it.

i need to get rid of all this amertume in my head... twist me on myself and take that tasteless juice out of me... Resolution 2010, let that be then!

You should have seen this new little flower, it's so dark red, grenat, that it's almost black...
my garden is pretty these days, very pretty. little flowers popping up everywhere.
and my two strawberry plants loved the rain too. its growing, making new territories.

Closed my eyes,
The most beautiful was so high in outer space,
Don't want to see this place,
Hands on my eyes,
Couldn't block the sounds that came to my ears,
' that I could hear their words and other fears,
...

to be continued..(hopefully)